i think i don have emotions.....i react calmly and indifferently to such things which might have shocked any other human being...i am too rational....but sometimes something brakes down within me and i become explosive...agressive... this is applicable to situations when someone acts unfairly or laughs at someone's inherent and unchangable traits...like appearance... but most of the times i explode when someone's views or even a physical presence is ignored by surrounding ppl just because of his material status, which is reflected in the way he's clothed...people who put themselves to higher stair than others based on their material state are simply SHIT...
these are my current thoughts...someone may simply laugh at them but i dont give a fuck...someone may decide that i've been a victim of ppl described above....they'd be partially right, but as time passes people change...dark goes bright....or sometimes even darker....and vice versa. i admit i've exprienced such situations long time before, and many others go through this...and many fail to realize that all that is simply unworthy of their emotional distress...lots of guys have chosen to become different, to behave in a way respected and accepted by others...and thus betray their inner voice that tells what's right...their behavior and actions are based on what other ppl in their surrounding would think of it...I think this is just losing self...because when their surrounding changes they will simply copy lines of behaviour of new surrounding...i ve seen a lot of guys went broke in early stages of their life this way...thus it's important to realize that not everything accepted by majority among your immediate surrounding /classmates, peers, colleagues/ is right...