Lately I've been feeling rising anxiety within me. The reason is the extreme optimism cupidity that was reigning in my mind when I made that step. That stupid and very unthoughtful act is now eating me from within. More precisely, it is realization of what I've done that's killing me. Can't believe that I hold an hons degree in finance. I start hating myself, but that's not a way out. Guess I gotta reinstall my brains.